After several years of un-diagnosed and repeatedly-denied depression, and then the emotional turmoil that followed on the heels of my divorce, I was too exhausted to feel. I know what's like to only feel apathy. I didn't know how horrifying it was until the antidepressants kicked in and I began to feel again. I experience everything now: joy, misery, loneliness, excitement, anxiety, stress, bliss, love, and every other emotion on the spectrum. I feel emotional pain like every human being and it's better than feeling nothing at all.